Day two (Cause I'm not being creative)

Continuing with my self made promise to continue writing a blog a day, This promise only two days in, I've dropped the usual blog manner of typing and begun to write in a FUCKING manner that's usually associated with me. I was playing Mass Effect 2 (yes I'm a nerd, SURPRISE EMMA) that unlike most games your goal is to save the damsel in distress but in this case the damsel is there all along. It's very similar in life we're there the one we care for is right then. We say hi, pass in the halls, shake hand, exchange a hug. Everyday you view that person you wish to whisk off and save, so to speak, and yet we do nothing, an odd construct of human weakness, we cannot act cause there's no immediate danger there's no dragon simply our stupidity and short sight keeps us from acting. For those in a long term relationship, HEY FUCKERS, be happy you acted, I am and it's rewarded me with fuckin' candy cookies, and trips to the zoo and a family that doesn't mock me as hard as mine does. It's a contentment that we strive for and usually fail at. Accept that maybe you are someone that's worth having around. This is, as most musicians and people of creative interest, a distinct and odd flaw that flows out of every accomplishment. For some its constructive, I play a rhythm sweetly and it is a tasty jam.... good now go back and unfuck what you did. It's the usual self depreciation that separates a genius from a talented jackass (John Mayer) but that destructive pattern always wins out to bring us down a level as well. I know only one musician whom believes himself great, though he maybe be, most of it is a face put on for others. I believe my playing is amateur, it lacks most of the creativity my mind gives, my writing lacks the soul I lock away, my singing weak and off key. these things bring me down and slow the pace of my growth but always a hump to get ever greater, the solution to being stuck at where your talent carried to far is to change. A new style, new band, new love all these give reason to play again. Speaking of genius, which I am now so suck it, why do we turn to them in a time of need I assure you the astro-physics professor should not be meddling in how our government is run yet we take their advice outside of there field. Its a worry-some thing much like the end of a Popsicle where you have two pieces on either side of the stick now its a game of luck and speed to get what you want. Much like learning to play an instrument.

Feelin Good
laughing through their perfect teeth